2009 ♥

HAPPY NEW YEAR! [in approx. 2 and a half hours] =D


i'm so thankful, Lord. you are my everything, and i'll give you anything. <33 Be near, oh God, be near oh God above. your nearness is to us our good.

Lord God ALMIGHTY, please protect us-each and every one of us-this coming year of 2009. Protect our hearts and our minds. Guide us, Lord, so that we may follow you and ONLY you. You are EVERYTHING, God. your grace is enough. more than enough. YOU are more than enough for me. Thank you. Thank you for sending Jesus to die on the cross for my sins. THANK YOU for forgiving me. THANK YOU for the many oppurtunities open to me to learn patience and confidence and self-control. THANK YOU for my family_each person is so0 unique and so..wonderfully made. THANK YOU for my LIFE, God. i still wonder_quite frequently_ WHY you created me, and even though i may never know (any time soon?) YOU know, and that is all that matters. Please help me to live for you in absolutely everything i do. every breath i take, God, guide me. Help me to watch what i say, what i watch (movies), what i listen to (music)..i have gotten a little better, but there are times when i catch myself listening to something and i feel a tad guilty. Forgive me, Lord for disobeying you, for not listening to you. Sometimes i feel like i'm "all talk" and i don't do anything to prove my love for you. i know that you know i love you, but i'd like to prove it to you through my actions and through my words. it's said that how an individual acts/reacts at home, with their family, is how that person really is. it's their
"real self" if this is true, then help me to first work on my life with my family. Help me to contain my frustration and hypocracy. [Forgive me_♥] God, thank you for my friend, Amanda Briggs. She has taught me SO much in the short amount of time that i've known her. i am incredibly grateful to have met her, and i feel you have so much more to teach me...through her. THANK YOU!

again..HAPPY NEW YEAR -twothousandnine- to ALL! and to ALL a wonderful, and blessed, and safe niight/week. =))

God Bless each and every person!

GOD IS GOOD. [you have no0 idear!] =D ♥lovelovelove♥

juust kidding in that last entryy. =))

mm. i'm in FLORIDA right now_ hecky pes! =D eighty degree weather. neverending sunshine. lizards and animals frolicking about. (lol) mm my father-eldest, mother dearest, sister-Melis and dill&dyrew and myself are visiting our family...whom we haven't seen in close-to 4 years! they're absolutely wonderful! =)) our family here_in Fl_owns a dog, Jake. aand he basically hates me and only me. =/ my sister, or someone else will be tickling meghan (4 year old cousin) and making her giggle, laugh, jump around, etc. so0 jake sees/hears this aand automatically thinks meghan is in trouble..so, for SOME reason, he starts barking his face off at ME..and nipping and growling and go0ing absolutely ca-razy...attacking me. aand i could be on the opposite side of the room, but if meghan or ashley(meghan's sisterr-9 years old) seem to be "in trouble" according to jake, then he'll attack me.

lol. he's cuuute, though! =)) i liike him. jake is oober playful and wonderful, but my family is even more wonderful! =D they are non-stop play and crazy and eat and bouncy...yet at the same time, oddly obedient and mature. =)) hehh.

aghh, i canNOT believe we're here! =D ♥

o0, the best part of this whole thing is that our family here, in Florida, had NO idea we were coming for Christmas! we completely SURPRISED THEM! <33 it was wonderful... my aunt Lisa and Ashley screamed. my grandpa just stared...and got all teary-eyed. he was speechless. o0 best of all [or worst of all?] we almost killed my grandmaaa. =o she opened the door to her apartment and saw my mom-ther standing there. she lost her breath and i thought we were going to have to take her to the hospital. she started crying and telling us over and over afterwards that she thought she was dreaming or that we were each look-alikes. (because you know how everyone in the world has a look-alike..?) hehh. yes. oh goodness, i'll never forget that. =))

mm welp, that's about it.

have a very MERRY CHRISTMAS! [remember: JESUS is the ONLY REASON for the season!..he's the real gift! =D] ♥♥♥

grawwrrrr

JEREMY MIDDLETON IS A LOSER. [x infinityyyyyy] 

he likes embarrassing me.

meany.

fine, we're not going tomorrroooowwwwww. =P

GOD IS GOOD.

i am bored. this is true. la la la & poo poo poo. =)) *teehee* ahemm...i still haven't found my digital camera, but honestly it doesn't bother me anymore. it's not that i don't care or don't want it, or that i've lost hope in finding it...it's just that i think whoever took it needed it more than i did, so if it makes them happy, they can keep it. i have my family and my friends and my heroes..and most importantly i have GOD! <33 class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">"All i need is you, Lord. is YOU, Lord. all i need is you. ...this world has NOTHING for me. i will follow you....'cuz i need you, Jesus to come to my rescue. where else can i go? there is NO OTHER name by WHICH I AM SAVED. oh, capture me with grace, i will FOLLOW YOU!..." ♥

i do believe God is fully and utterly capable of fulfilling any hope any desire any purpose he so chooses. we have to have faith. stand together. i like what Pastor Gregg [youth pastor at Calvary] said during sunday school yesterday.. something like "we, as followers of Christ don't need to be fighting/arguing with one another about little disputes that all have the same focal point-which is loving God and putting God first. Instead, we should be fighting, breaking down the enemy. Bringing people up, and not allowing them to be deceived by our prideful actions in quarreling with one another."  it reminds me of Sanctus Real's song "We Need Each Other" it's SO true. we, as Christians canNOT do this by ourselves. we cannot do anything by ourselves. Yes, God is always always ALLWAAAYYYSS with us, but we need to build one another up. we need to help each other. hold each other accountable. =)) WE CAN DO IT! <33

life sucks

quite simply that.  i feel completely inadequate. i'm irresponsible. i never get anything done when i'm supposed to. i procrastinate like no other. my ex-BEST friends and i don't exactlly "hang out" anymore. i'm so confused about how i WANT to feel, and how God wants me to feel. [ you wouldn't understand]. i'm sick of being mocked. i'm even more sick of people mocking God. you selfish, arrogant, clueless people; how can you NOT see how much God has given you? and for what? your LOVE. your stinkin LOVE is all he wants in return for all the pleasures, and riches and luxuries of this world. He's given them to us, yes, but he wants you to see that these earthly materials are not what life is all about. we're spoiled ROTTEN. even if you say you're "poor" you have no idea. if you have clothes to wear (even if it's the same sweatshirt everyday) you've got half the world beat. if you have food at least once a day_whew boyy, you're rich. 

i don't know what to make of my friends.

i don't know what to make of my family.

i don't know what to make of myself.

What do i make of my relationship with Christ? [i need help♥]

SPEAK LORD, I want TO LISTEN. _but am i listening?

spaghetti noodles in H2O

i have a magnificent wife. Her name is AMANDA. she's radical. <33

i screw a lot of things up.

you will never see me not giving my ALL.

SPEAK LORD, YOUR SERVANT IS LISTENING! [am i listening?]

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

please understand, i do not want to date at the moment.
one can never have too many friends! =))

oh jumping jehosephats!

i realllyyy NEED my camera, por favor.