screww it.

that "prayer journal" thing is not going to happy because it finally hit me [like a car crash, i might add] that people DO NOT GIVE A CRAP. whatevverrr.


so0, i'm basically a religious loser that society has put me out to be_namely, my school* has put me out to be. i used to be so strong, i used to not care if other people thought i was "too christian" (even though there's no such thing.) however, since my CLOSEST friends (now like ex-friends) told me the same thing, and basically treated me like poop for awhile...i feel so weak, aand so0 friggin alone. i've lost too many friends, and i'm down to TWO bffs when i started out high school with 7. kinda succkss, but now i know who could put my beliefs aside, and still be my friend. oh, and since "i love God" and all, guys seem to be in disgust with me, so that's a bit of a downerr.


on a random note: alexa young (one of my bff's_ =D) came to church with me today, by her own choice, aaand she liked it, so she's coming again next week! yayy =))


despise all the loneliness, and weakness i'm experiencing, i still place God above all else..even when it's hard. my goodness, it is SO friggin frustrating trying to live my life for God and at the same time longing for the compassion from your friends..ex-friends..WHATEVER.


ugh.