o0h baby.

hehe, so this is basically my very first blog e'err! (well, not including the solitary one i have on myspace.com/i_likepickles.) anywho0...i've had a prodigious amount of thinking, and i do believe it would be a splendid idear to make these blogs as my prayer journals. i thought it'd be neat because i'd like to remember what i pray about, and look back on them, and the way i talked to God. prayer is such a powerful thing, and it is oober important to me. this is all very cheesy, but that's how i like it. (do you like thattt?_inside joke; BFFALT.)


Lord, first of all thank you so0 much for my life. I have yet to understand why you created me, and what my purpose really is in this broken world. Thank you for my family, God. Although I may never tell them I love them, I do. So much! I pray that they know that I would do absolutely anything for each one of them, and I am so grateful to have such a loving, forgiving, humurous family. Thank you for my mother, she is unbelieveably caring, and I admit, sometimes it's a little extreme, but I know she's doing whatever she's doing for my benefit. Thank you for my father-eldest, he works incredibly hard for us. Even when we cannot afford to buy school clothes, a reed for my instrument, or pay for cheerleading or baton or a $200 dollar trip to Chicago, my dad always makes sacrifices to find a way to pay for my things. Infact, he's so giving, that I feel really very selfish at times. For example, my last birthday (17th) all I desired was a cell phone; I didn't even care if it was a crappy $100 dollar phone (how sad is it that $100 is like now the cheapest); however, we could not afford a cell phone, but my mom and dad bought me a camera instead. Golly, they know me too well. I was IN friggin LOVE with my camera! I was so0 happy, i even forgot that i wanted a phone in the first place. =)) That is a simple example of the sacrifices my dadio makes for us. And, Lord, thank you for my sister. I pray that she is safe at OU, and I pray she is having a good time, but remembering to focus on her studies. I hope she is making the right choices, hanging with people that will be of good example to her, and making friends that will help her make her walk stronger with you. Please protect her, and intervene in her life. I feel that she needs you now more than ever. I'm not sure why, but you do, and I wish her the best. As much as i'll ever deny it in public, (with the exception of this blog) i do love Melis. =) Last but not least, thank you for Dylon and Drew. I may get along better with dylon at times, but I love them equally. they're my favorite brothers -(haha.) Dylon seems to have a strong grasp on you, but Drew...well, he's another story. I pray for drew, that he will become hungrier for you, and desire to know you more and more each breath he takes. God, help both, dylon and drew to make the right choices. especially in their relationships with their girlfriends. they seem to be improving their struggles with school, but i believe they can do even better yet, so I pray that you will give them the motivation, and wisdom, Lord. Show them what's really important.

Please give me patience, Heavenly Father. I need to stop trying to depend on my own understandings and instead focus on you and your purposes for me. Honestly, i doubt at times that you will ever show me "that ONE guy" you have created for me. The one i will marry, and have a future with. Forgive me for doubting you, forgive me for not trusting your timing, forgive me for..everything. I LOVE YOU, so muchh. Help me to do a better job to serve you, and SHOW you that I love you. i mean, i know you are aware of my deep love for you, but I want to make it a priority to serve you. I want to make YOU my number ONE priority. you are all that matters, you are all that satisfies. you are MORE THAN ENOUGH for me, and i am so undeserving of your love, your grace. Again, I say..you are more than enough.

One more thing, I pray for all of the teachers and coaches at our school, I pray that you will keep them safe. Let them know you're with them, and please lift the weight of their shoulders, let them not be stressed or worried about anything. Give them a sense of calmess and joy.


I LOVE YOU, Lord God Almighty! <3

in precious Jesus' name i pray,
Amen.